The Dream...I couldn't have!

Oh! How blessed, I was
When I saw the rainbow
...and the stars that kissed the sky;
Everywhere there was this light and love and joy
that were spreaded and laid by

Together they never struck apart
and't was such a sight of deep and blue lake of Fine art!
The dream...I couldn't have
It was a dream I could never have
to witness the world that was full of flights of fancies!
and a green sea with a dusty wave
This dream I couldn't have!
to stare the shores and birds
and the thousands of shells to save...

Temptations!
Was there a place like this?
or just a man like this?
that were full of white and purple bubbles
and the dark and soft hallow of bliss
Again, this dream...I couldn't have
to have just million such lives to live...
and just take a loaf of this Universe-into an inner part of mine!
...to feel and touch that force
which is so complete and divine...

And now take me, just lift me up
that I could touch the sky
It will let both of us Fly!
It surrounded my waist
with its cloudy arms
and gave me a big hug...
It's sprinkling laughter on
OUR earth
with the golden emphatic rays
Asking to choose a common one
out of two different ways...

It is now my destiny,
the very 'dream'... I couldn't have!

Lost, actually!

...That spasm, the moment!
That hour of thirst and my parched soul!
The burning avarice for your courtship!

I always adored your placid qualities,
Your eloquent eyes and soothing lips
That tranquil sound with contemplative gaze;
Was that a man that I want?
Was that the life I desired for?-asked my heart to my mind.
...and it remained unaswered...

...I want that paternal care,
That dominant lover,
That ever-so-sensuous music that flows
from his whole being in eternity...

I want that alluring masculinity,
Those enchanting words,
That obstinacy on the worldly matters,
A person painted in myriad colours
Who can make these moments- ''a timeless present''!

I want that existence to lay beside mine,
On a winter morning ... when the Sun will be glaring at us with pain,
Having seen him by my side,
I want those hands to lock my waist
I want those eyes to behold my heart
I want those fingers to touch me beneath my surface!!

I want- I want- I want-
I am craving!

No-He-Mine-My Destiny-My Past
My scattered pondering still sees him as Nature's honour!

He is not mine- not mine-
Uttered my throb, my veins,
my mind, my existence
and collapsed!