I'm Falling Apart

I’m falling apart from you

I don’t know how to give it up

All those mornings I saved for us

That I’m still holding on

I’m falling apart from you

The diamond dreams you showered on me

It felt like this world’s within my tiny squeeze

Your eyes got me down the stormy road

And for that one touch, I gave away all my glee

I’m going away from you

I’m falling apart from you

When I called out for you in the darkness

To bring on some sunshine and hold my hands

You turned away and left me growling

For all the lonely nights of despair

I am calling it game tonight

Saying goodbye to you,

I’m falling apart from you!

If Summer Ends

If summer ends…

I’d climb up the roofs and try to touch flying clouds

I’d ask the tress to swing around and dance with the wind

If summer ends…

I’d tell monsoon to stop by for a while

To give me those pearl some drops

That I can save to sprinkle for the later sun storm!

If summer ends…

I’d pour the raindrops in a tub

To bind the little castle in the sand I wish to dwell

And I’d then bid the monsoon a sweet good bye!

Then the winter arrives…

Cold and happy with the chilly breeze

With fogs and dew and snow with some haze

And my winter stays,

For the years and decades to come

It touches my soul and fills it with the bliss

The winter is the time of hope and happiness

The winter designs my existence chirping to the fullest!  

बादल घीर आए

Hey friends,

This is one of my recent attempts to pen down a Bandish (a composition in a Raag). We have the similar kind of song structure in Indian classical compositions. I have composed it using the notes of Raags Desh and Gaud Malhar, although the composition is not purely based on these Raags. I will share the full song with you all on Youtube as I complete the audio-video recordings. 



बादल घीर आए गरज गरज 
बैरी बरखा जाने न देत

तरसे जिया मोरा पिया के मिलन को, 
बीच डगरिया बिजुरी डरावे 
मानत पिया काहे ना 

मोर, पपीहरा सबद सुनावे,
सावन के घन मन को लुभाए 
मानत जिया काहे ना 

My Love Is Frenzy

My love is frenzy,

Craving to hold the power of your existence

My love is a fever,

Surrenders to the charge of this infinite distance

My love is still holding on

To the charming truths of the nearest silver line

It’s coming back and forth

And struggles for the slightest conversation to divine…


While I feel your love overpower my senses

My spasms sway round leaving behind the pretenses


Your love is strength

Holding back to the glory of the past

Your love is a constant faith,

Penning incarnations it desires to last

Your love is music

It sings and beats and dances to the leaps of my heart

Your love gives me wings

And never let me go bleak for the tiniest part

Your love is my fate

It carries my inner world with the tender touch

I declare this to be my conscience

That I devote to soothing sounds I willfully clutch!

Your love defines the art and life I sail!

Little Girl

There was a little girl,

Sweet tender smile on the face, her eyes shining like a pearl

Singing like a melody of a nightingale

Far away from the world, closed in a shell

She poured love with the music in the air

The mist touched her lips and the wind kissed her hair

Singing and dancing to the tunes of the stars

Splashing joy were moon and the mars

Songs of her gaiety filled the day

Putting the joy to the senses to sway

And then she lied quietly on the grass,

Muttering the notes not a word can surpass

She rushed and bounced to the dreams affined 

Ceasing the blues and the worries behind….

        She landed in the land of the light for the times infinite!

Moth

Paint me red and blue

the gravest of the hue,

Sell me some dreams

I'll wear a drop of dew.

Bundles of pearls can't fetch the joy

that feathers murmur in the air like a ring

Being a man is so tic-tac toy;

I wish to be a moth...

...to fly with those sunset-yellow pair of wings

Now paint me little black

A nature's mistake;

Touching his dry overcoat

I found a loud and tiny note

A message to my heart-

those ardent worlds gone apart

like a bubble will happily survive

like the existence of some forest hive...

I Surf and Dance

to preserve some romance

still so parched, so half, so grieved

Buckets of tide turned around and believed

....There is a faith burning inside

and the cold stream runs yet far away!

दूर क्यूँ?

I was trying really hard to get down and write a song. I always thought I can never write a song and that means I am not a musician. (I still believe that I can't write a song. :D) After so much of struggle, I thought I must just give a medium to the flow that is going on at present at the back of my mind, not really caring about the meter or rhyme. So friends, I want your take on it. I will not say anything about it as a piece of art is best judged by people who experiences it. This is my first ever attempt to scribble down something serious in Hindi.

तुम दूर, बहोत दूर क्यूँ?

दूरियाँ भी नज़दीक आके पूछने लगी

की परवाह किसके लिए इतनी?

रोज़ रोज़ अपना पहरा लिए शाम निकल आती है,

सूरज ढल जाने पे कहीं मायूस हो जाती है,

अब धुल की छोटी बदली बादल बनके पूछती है;

ये धुंआ, ये पानी, आग पे क्यूँ?

सपनों का इक पूरा मौसम आता जाता है

बीच सड़क पे मई की धुप में आती जाती भीड़

बात मुझसे खफा होकर भी करने लगी, ये कबसे जागी रात,

ऐसेमें फिर तुम चुप, बस चुप-चुप क्यूँ?